Me Before Weight Watchers...read on..
Hey Everyone!!! I've decided that enough is enough and I'm going to document my Weight watchers journey using this blog. A lot of people say you should be proud to lose weight but this hasn't been something that has happened over night. I joined WW January 15, 2009 and I'll admit things were going well up until summer of last year. Its very hard for me to come clean but my starting weight was 267.2lbs ..yes that was ALL of me...(see picture Above). Those were not good times. I was in a 3 year relationship with someone who didn't mind the weight gain so when that relationship ended I was like, "oh my god when did i let myself GO".
So four days after my birthday I made the trek to Weight Watchers in Long Island and joined. The first few weeks..(or months) went well. Losing 2/3 pounds here was awesome. I cant even lie. All was well until August of that year..I was 31.6 lbs down (weighing 235) but since that time I've plateaued at 227.4. (a couple ounces away from 40lbs) (i'm in the black--picture to the right. IT was Halloween #dontjudgeme lol)
This has been the most difficult task I've ever encountered in my life. Yes I am thankful but I am slowly losing hope. I have days where I feel like maybe WW isnt for me and maybe I'm meant to be heavy but then I try to fight that feeling with thoughts of finally reaching goal. It hurts when I see people lose 80/90 lbs in 8 or 9 months when its been over a year for me..It really does. I can barely keep a dry eye when I see so many people have what I want.
There are some things I need you to understand- I don't blame weight watchers for me not losing weight. I am not a strong tracker (work in progress) and I have a weakness for junk food (cake, candy, chips etc). As of today, 6/22 I am promising myself and asking God to help me with this trial.
I have a work out regiment and I am on Day 2 of the Jillian Michael 30 Day Shred. I'll update (hopefully on a daily basis) with the going ons. Thank you for taking time to read my rant.
Welcome to Blogland! You can do this, but you will have to get your head in the game. Don't worry about what other people have done. You have to do what is best for you. It took be 2 years to loss 55 pounds and you know what I would not change anything. I always beat myself up and say why can't I loss more, but I have to stop. I will be following your journey. GOOD LUCK! YOU CAN DO IT!
ReplyDeleteYour story really touched me because I can relate. It can be frustrating when you've been on this journey for a while but the main thing is your not giving up. Your still on this journey and you are determined to be healthy. Don't give up, we are in this thing together for as long as it takes. I'm glad you have started blogging, it's a great suport system.
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